Short-term goals

I was feeling really upset just now.

I think it was out of frustration.

My Sims character is currently pregnant. My bad, because I made them try for a baby... not knowing it's a "guaranteed deal". Thought it would take at least a few tries.

Well, only the husband Sims is working now. Take home pay is $40/hour. The shower was stolen by a burglar. Had to build a room for the baby... buy a cot, high chair and books on pregnancy.

All that cost so much now my Sims are almost broke.

It reminded me of reality.

I felt that everything was out of my control. As much as I am doing my best, I can't seem to catch up with the natural progression of life.

He wants a baby, in real life. I used to want a baby when I was much younger. But right now? No.

Why not?

1. Our home is not ready yet and when it's ready, we need money for furniture and renovation.
2. We're not earning enough yet. I want to be able to provide a decent sum of money for my mother before I even think about having a baby.
3. He's not ready in my opinion.
4. I am not ready.
5. I am not confident I can be a good mother.
6. I want my freedom, as selfish as this may sound. I still want to travel to countries I've never been before... 
7. I want to get into a new job and settle down in it comfortably.
8. It's a huge commitment and it's for life. 24/7. It's going to be tiring.

And there are so many more considerations that we have to think about.

That will have to take the backseat for now. 

I just want to fulfill my short-term goals for now.

• Get a new job and settle in it.
• Exercise more and join a marathon.
• Learn a new skill or take up a new course.

I will achieve these goals within these two years. I must.

The SIMS 3

[Source: http://sims.wikia.com/wiki/The_Sims_3]

The hubby and I got the game last weekend. We talked about it before, but I was not very keen as I think it's a very addictive game. Addictive games take away too much of your time. However, it was selling at a low price at the game shop we were in... so we decided to get it. :P

Just like how I felt when I started the Facebook version of The Sims (a long time back)... I was very frustrated at first. The characters were always hungry, tired or urgently needed to pee. I got them into jobs too soon as well and had no time to develop their relationship.

Through that, we kinda realised... isn't that like what real life is about for a lot of people? Or couples to be exact.

Everyone's so busy with work, with their own needs... there's little time left to maintain or develop relationships.

I made the characters quit their jobs. Coordinated the fulfilment of their needs and got them to spend time together. :D

Now they are happily married!

I haven't figured out how to get the photos I've taken in the game... if not I would post them here. Haha...

Anyway, if only real life is as easy as the game in terms of surviving without a job... endless supply of food in the fridge... and life is all about maintaining the home, relationship and your personal interests. And if you want to work, you can always start low at a company that you really want to work at and advance your career from there...

That would be so perfect.

Ideals.

Yesterday, he asked me what would I want to do if money is out of the picture, if money is not an issue.

We listened to this video in which an old man was saying that it is stupid to work for money our entire life and to teach our children the same way of living. I agree. I agree with that wholeheartedly.

However, as much as I wanna pursue that idealistic way of living (of being in a "job" because of passion and not money)... I cannot.

I have my responsibilities to take care of. My parents. Our home. And my parents, they are getting old... fast. I want to let them live comfortably...

So as much as I hate to work for money, I have to. Unless I find a job that I really enjoy a lot and yet earn enough money to fulfill my duties and to live a comfortable life.

For most people, to be able to find that kind of job... is like being able to strike lottery. The chances are really low.

I'm on the lookout. Crossing my fingers.

Ok, back to his question. For a moment I didn't know how or what to answer him.

Then he said he would like to write a book. That reminded me of what I like to do.

If money is not an issue, and I have zero responsibilities to take care of.... I will:

• Make handicrafts to sell - bags, pouches, toys, etc.
• Paint (even though I'm nowhere at the professional level)
• Take a risk and open a shop 

I will also learn more languages. 

The rat race is not for me. So if I can, I will take any chance to get out of it and do things that I love.

Yet, reality and ideals often cannot meet/match-up.

I will however, do my best in reality and slowly work my way to achieve my ideals? :P

10 years, I am giving myself 10 years. It will never be too late to fulfill my wishes/goals. As long as I am able to do so in this lifetime, I'll be satisfied with my life.